I have to make this extremely hard decision at this point. Between the sport I love and worked hard for past years and the profession that I worked even harder and desire for. I have 3 weeks until FTC Virginia states champion and 5 weeks from orienteering interscholastic champion. For the past year, I gave my everything to this robotics team that I involved founding. At the same time, I worked the hardest ever during all the orienteering practice. I am so proud that I had my coach and wonderful teammates who inspired me everyday. However, my coach told me that if I can't get back in shape in time for interscholastic, he will kick me out of the varsity team. I know that if I could have 3 weeks for preparing, I will be back in perfect shape and none of them can beat me, however, I don't have 3 weeks, I have only 2. I have been worked so hard for robotics for this year that I will scarifies everything for it. We only have two years of experience and we are qualified for states champion now, that is not something that most people couldn't achieve.
I am so confuse and I feel so tired at this time of period. I am so worry about if I can keep working as hard as before. I want to achieve goals with my own talent and hard working. If my coach just put me on the varsity team that my another teammates deserve more than I do, I won't take it, because that is the professionalism that I have.
It makes me feel so bad. I didn't have this kind of feeling for the past 3 years. I don't know what to do. I know that I need to make this tough decision as soon as possible because I can't keep wasting my time on decision making. I can't split my time half for them because I am so afraid that if I split my time and efforts half, I won't get any of them done.
For everyone who read though, please give me advice. I think I need someone that can give me advice.
I am so confuse and I feel so tired at this time of period. I am so worry about if I can keep working as hard as before. I want to achieve goals with my own talent and hard working. If my coach just put me on the varsity team that my another teammates deserve more than I do, I won't take it, because that is the professionalism that I have.
It makes me feel so bad. I didn't have this kind of feeling for the past 3 years. I don't know what to do. I know that I need to make this tough decision as soon as possible because I can't keep wasting my time on decision making. I can't split my time half for them because I am so afraid that if I split my time and efforts half, I won't get any of them done.
For everyone who read though, please give me advice. I think I need someone that can give me advice.